"On the downward spiral"
See, That's the trouble with you, kid. You always can make the first line but never stick around to finish the story.
I've never been good at this. The whole "understanding my feelings thing". Just, Everything seems to be on the downward spiral again, No matter how hard I try and try again, I just will give up and crash like every other time.
What really gets me is it doesn't make any sense, Things couldn't be better, I love my job and get plenty of work, I have a amazing girlfriend, my grades are, well, decent and I'm back at school and paying more attention and trying harder than ever.
So why do I feel so damn pessimistic about the whole thing?
My life is good, yet I never seem to be happy. Am I just that imprinted over the years that I just can't be content with things being "good" for once?
Goddammit, Just listen to me, None of this helps. It's the snowball effect, the bad feelings keep getting worse so you feed them, getting bigger and bigger, stronger and stronger but at some point all of them will all crash at the bottom of the hill.
The low point.
Wow, I really have to get myself out of this bind.
