Christmas n Shit.

Why am I awake?
It's 2:38am, Morning of Christmas Eve.
Christmas, I even hate typing the word but basically ever since I was kid, It was never what it should be, I don't remember a Christmas I was truly happy, I'm sure there are some, but recently, I just do not like them for a few reasons.
Reason one is families. Both my mothers and father's family don't live exactly in town, with Dad's parents in Gympie and Cooroy and Mum out at Bucca and Her sister in Emerald, Christmas usually means travelling of some sort.

Then there is the fact that my father's parents are heavy drinkers especially my grand mother. this means Christmas is a time of loud drunken rowdiness all round and no fun at all for a child of my age. Luckily, I am not spending this Christmas with them..

Instead, I get to hang out with my mother's mum and her boyfriend along with my auntie and uncle and their three small children (In case I forgot to mention Children get on my nerves after not long) but that's not the issue, the issue is that my mother's family are all fairly religious, this means grace saying, sensible manners and respect to our lord and savior. It also means there's not much fun too be had.

This pattern has alternated through out my life with going to visit them at points or them coming here. Frankly I really don't enjoy any of it. On top of all that this year I decided to get Christmas presents for people (seeing as I have had a job) and on total I have spent upwards of $300 dollars.

It's all too much for a holiday no one even really celebrates for what it was started for. Not that I really care.

For once, I want a Christmas were I can do what I like hang out with my friends and just have a chill and relaxed time without making a big expensive thing out of all of it. So to close I would like to say, Fuck you Christmas and to all a good night

-Aden

Oh yeah.

Broke up with Maree.
Just sayin'.

Hello Humans.

This is a blog post.

That is all.

5:54AM

It's quiet, very quiet.
Except for the birds and the traffic in the distance and there's this really annoying typing nose like some idoit is posting on a blog.. Oh wait..

It is 5:54AM, I'm awake, No that this time is completely strange to me, for you see, due to my recent employment at Lotties Coffee Pot, in which I am studing my Certificate II in Hospitality, I have had to wake up around this time to get ready and ride too work. This would be great, if it wasn't for the fact that I am now in the habit of waking up at these times, even when I don't require it. It's frustraiting really.

Alongside schoolwork I seem to have found a inablity to be awake, if you can not find me in my half dozed of state then I am probably asleep.

As for the reason I am awake, Well, That's all due to the fact that I have assignments to complete and I really should do them. All I lack is the moviation.

If your really witty you will have worked out that as I am posting this, Yes, My internet has been returned, better and faster than ever. Which means I shall likely be blogging more frequently. If I don't well I've been asleep or eaten my ravenous hordes of zombies. Either is fine, I have no preference.

Expect to hear from me,
-Aden

The sweeter blood is, The fatter the fleas.

THE HONEY TASTES SWEETER WHEN YOU ANGER THE BEES!

Hello followers, (saying that makes me feel powerful)
Long time no blog, so quick update for all those people who have been under a rock and without internet like me.

It's my birthday tomorrow (woo! fifteen *parties*) going to paintball, that's about it.
Um, What else..
Oh, Just completed work experience at Lotties Coffee Pot, which is proably going into a traineeship (*cheers*) and if I stick to that I can have my full qualifcations within a year of leaving school. (*more cheers*) Maree and I broke up for a bit, I has have trouble sorting myself out but hopefully things will be better. (hopefully) So um yeah, Nipples.

I know this was boring but just letting my devoted followers what is happening with my godly existance. (get it? Because your my followers?)

Well untill nest time, (*bows*)
-Aden

The car waves.

So you all know how like, If your going around a corner and a car comes past and gives a wave you know there is a speed trap ahead, right?

Well my dear friends, It doesn't stop there.

In general cars don't wave to each other, and usually only when they know each other. Any vehicle can do the see someone you know BEEP BEEP wave, with an exception for maybe motorbikes, they do the BEEP BEEP waves swerve crash snap bleed burn crawl die.

Still following?

If you drive a van you'll get waves from other vans but not caravans, they are to high and mighty for the normal van, especially if it's a old person in a caravan. Trucks wave to trucks and solely trucks, although trucks will however beep at a signal from a pedestrian.

Getting more complex..

Buses wave to other bus drivers, they are like a big family. the salute from the steering wheel, or the serious stiff handed waves, are all traditional track/bus driver waves. Motorbike will nod to other motorbike with the occasional wave, this is dangerous (see previous point) and may cause waving issues i.e it's hard to wave with a broken wrist.

SUVs, Sedans, Hatchbacks and other assorted generic cars do not wave to one each other. Their wrists would be tired after about 5 minutes, There is just too many.

Normal waving is accepted in general but selective waving is going to earn you higher respect.

keep a look out for the types of waves in your area, and make your you use the right one, you don't want that random guy you'll never meet to think of you as some sort of bad waver.

Waving is a fun business.

Happy waving everyone.

*expletive* it

God damnit,
I'm sick of it all.

I try so hard, I do what I can to help out, nothing works, not far from just leaving, if only I had the guts and somewhere to go, but no one would want me, I know I wouldn't want me.

Learn to Help, It ain't hard.

...post... post... post...
Hmmm, I feel like blogging, yet I have not much to discuss, I began this to have somewhere to talk about how I've been feeling.. and yet, it seems I don't need to anymore.

Oh, I would like to say, I am off my medication and my strange dreams have began to disappear. I a way, I miss them, the where telling me what was going on inside my head. Now, My dreams are gone by morning, I guess.. at least I don't wake up screaming.

"Hmmm, Maybe, just maybe I'll talk to them about that."

"Peer Skills"... It's a program run at my school that helps a group of nominated people learn to reach and help out to other students with their problems. As you may know if you follow my blogs, That helping people is something I love to do. therefore, I was interested in this opportunity. Turns out. no one else thought I was. I wasn't selected for the program. I have come to realize, I don't need people to know I'm someone there willing to help, you don't need to work with people to learn to help. Help can be giving by anyone of any age, gender, race, or social background. So that's just what I will do. I'm going to help people with their problems, if they need it, and let them know I'm there, I would also like to put it out to my readers to try and help too. Don't cause the problem solve it. If you seem someone in trouble, don't just stand by and left it happen, do something about it. I know I've been doing it far too long.

Sorry for that little bit of a ramble.

Till my next post,
-Aden

Josh & Friends

Dear readers,

I would like to bring to the attention of all of you, the importance of a friend you can really rely on and talk to, though the tough times and all.

So I would like to thanks My Friend Josh aka Joshhy aka Kazlom aka Xendal aka Shard.

You've been there for me though so much of my shit, and everyone else's. I'm glad to have known you for so long and you have been such a influence in my life, and I am happy for it.

Thanks man

-Aden

When is love not enough?

I've sort of had a silent contract with myself that I would never blog simply on the topic of love, as it is a very shaky topic and everyones views vary, plus truly I don't think i'd ever be able to get what I'm saying right and display it how I want.

But, Frankly, I don't trust me, so the silent contract is off.

When is love not enough to keep a relationship going?

Given that a relationship should never be based on desire alone, but love can't be the only part, you must want to be with the person you are with. You must want to interact with them and just be with them.

So why does everything I try to do turn out so wrong?

Does she want to be with me anymore? I know she loves me, I love her but is it enough, we seem to be drifting further and further apart and there is nothing I can do about it. Well, what can I do? When I try talking to her, or just working things out, I get pushed away and told to leave her alone, so I do then I'm in trouble for ignoring her. God. It's getting to be too much.

Hmmm, I will see how things go, but readers, I don't really know if they will be going good.

Till next post

-Aden

Brief leave of absence

Dear readers, the few of you there are.

I would like to inform you that my sanity has taken a brief relieve of absence as it could no longer cope with the stressful conditions inside my head, and it was covered by his health plan, so as soon the flights were booked it was off to god knows where (my god I may add, not yours)

Anywho, as of such circumstances the following blog posts my be jumbling and ramble-ful, but do try to enjoy the tea.

Upon the a concurrence of the strange feeling upon my body I being to feel a sensation all too regular to my state of mind, it was the sensation or feeling of that said "sadness" which us humans seem to develop in times of sorrow. The reason thus was the fact that I dearly missed the one that meant dearly to me, and it was already approaching tea time. Having lunch time already pass the illusion was weakening so I had to act fast, before my pillow my head was forced to hit.

I skipped past the minority's of life and hid my tears until I was able to talk to her, we were planned to meet, but we did not, Such misfortunate events had taken place so the time simply did not want to allow us the ability too. Hence was much reason for my sorrow, the other reason is slightly more complex if you delve slightly deeper into the crust of my mind you will find the idea based with it that I was going out tonight, But due to said events that had transpired I had not gone from my home, So that left me, dear reader, with a immense feeling of being quite lost, Do you ever get this feeling? Have you ever walked with ten cats on your head? Have you yet to box a gox? Tis quite fun if you know how.

Throughly lost and displeased left me with my next strange sense.... creativity.

Which, Do not frown oh, frumpish readers, as that leads me to writing in my small space of my own mind outside myself, I call Mr. Blogspace.

Frankly, I throughly enjoy writing to my followers, So powerful sounding, following, yet I follow several of the people who follow me, like a big following democratic circle, does that even work? I hope so.

Ahahahaha, and they were stricken to the ground. What was I saying Oh right,

Until another time, Toodles.

-Aden "The Hat"

Consideration

Dear readers, as little of you as there are.

Does there come a point in ones life were you simply are incapable to helping any longer, as lately, I am finding myself giving advice to my friends to help them with issues they are dealing with.

First of all I would just like to say, I help people, because I try and fill the gaps in my life by the joy of others so I never truly have to face my own issues if I am concentrating on others. It probably isn't healthy. Nor Is it productive towards my lifestyle but I do it because it feels right to me.

AS of last night I came to a realization, I have seemingly come to a stop in my ability to help people and give advice, as before were helpful words would flow and I could support my friend, I am listening to situations because are getting into and I have no advice to offer.

Am I simply just not smart enough to handle the things I am trying to take on, or is it my brain telling my enough is enough and there are more things to do in life the steering others for them.

Frankly It is beginning to distress me and has become rather bothersome in daily life much liek the dreams that swirl as real as day in the back of my mind, but I will get to that in a later post.

Unsure what to do next,

-Aden

Beauty and the human body.

Beauty is everywhere.

Nothing is without it's own unique style, even at a glance it forms in some way or another to create something spectacular.

Beauty does not have specific requirements nor does it only apply to obvious things.

Therefore, In any way or another, Everything is beautiful, from a single water drop after a sun shower, to vast mountainous landscapes though the fog and I, for one believe the most beautiful things that someone may come across is the human body.

"Beauty is the eye of the beholder"

The human form is unique to us, and only us, creates by many years of gradual evolution, it has become this thing of slender beauty but I am not simply talking about models and hot chicks.

Even the plainest or ugliest person in the room is beautiful for what they are.

Human.

Which is why I am of the belief that the human body itself, is not something dirty, It is simply the way we are and the way we have become. We should cherish it for what it is not restrict it for the simply prejudices that modern society has brought.

I once had someone tell me that clothes were the most important invention of all time. That would not believe anything otherwise. To me it seem foolish, as nakedness is simply another way of being, showing your true self. Yet, this person was convinced that the was something clearly wrong about ones inner form. Beautiful as it may be.

But that's just the way I think.

For reading this I thank you, If you didn't then you can't read that I thank you. So I don't.

Until my next post-

Aden

To my followers.

Dear followers,

I have started getting into writing posts.

And I was wondering on wither or not to tell people about my blog.

It slightly concerns me, as a lot of the stuff, some may find very odd.

So Do I post my blog on my facebook?

Telling the world about my ramblings?

I would much appreciate your input..

Scribbled by-
Aden

New experience.

Blogging is relatively new to me, but I shall give it a shot, as a new experience of mine.

But before I start, Let me tell you a few things about who I am and what defines me. So as your reading this you may be able to see were I'm coming from.

I am 14, I live with my mum, who recently divorced my father, after a long string of fights and arguments which along with past childhood feelings have lead to me developing depression. I do take medication for it and am slowly working towards getting out of it, despite the fact I have strong belief that the human body should heal itself, without the aid of man-made substances and if it can't get past that, then it wasn't meant to be. Basic Darwinism beliefs. Therefore, I simply take the medication for the benefit of my family and friends, of whom I care more for than I do myself. I do not like violence, but I believe it is a necessary thing. I am Undecided in terms of my religious views, I would like to have some sort of Faith, but have yet to find the one that I truly value. Because of my depression I view the word in a very realist manner, and I love to get inside peoples heads and see what makes them work.

With that rather lengthier than expected idea of my mind-state.

I shall continue with my blog.

Recently, I have been reading more, immersing myself with the ideas within the book and trying to really engage with people I talk too. I am finding much joy in attempting to help my friends with issues they might have but lately I have been finding that although I try my best to be there for the ones I care about. Sometimes, It does the filpside and things can get haywire.

Which leaves me at a predicament.. What do I do to help the ones who need it?

Do I simply just say I am there to talk to if they need it, or do I slowly work my way into discussion of the problem. I care truly for most people, even if it seems the are not wanting of it, It is part of my personality. So I simply am unable to leave things be and this worries me, How can I help people, So I would like to say here and now to anyone who bothers reading this,

I'll listen.

Anyhow, It is late, And are words are escaping me, So until another time.

Farewell,

Aden

Simply, This is my blog.

I will be using it to post things I create within my mind, things that happen and things I simply wish to express.

I do not expect you to read it, I just want to get my thoughts out there, wither they are heard or not.

Expect to hear from me soon.

-Aden